How To Save A Life - The Fray

Those who know me, know I love Lady Gaga, but of course, I do like other artists to, particularly, The Fray. I wanted to make a post about The Fray's How To Save A Life eons ago, but procrastinated up till now. The music video was intended to be about how the singer wanted to help a troubled teen, but couldn't due to invisible barriers, one of them being the reluctance of the child who refused aid to solve his/her problems.

However, the song is left rather open for interpretation. So, what I did was that I collected random excerpts that appeared in the music video, supposedly, the ones appearing in bold, are random quotes, supposedly struggles within themselves, the rest suggests that it it method of 'how to save a life', here it goes (in order of appearance):

LISTEN

8. HOLD STILL

DAD

MOM

15. let it GO

36. DON’T BE scared of DEATH

LAUGH

18. Talk to someone

45. Touch

BREATHE

22. CRY

23. ACCEPT

I’m not good enough

Fear

RELEASE

HAVE FAITH

SURRENDER

release the fear

1. LOVE

*secure

86. OPEN UP

11. Remember

99. SAY GOODBYE

*'secure' was rather ambiguous, as it appeared on the screen and was not written but appeared as a label on a brand, (supposedly a brand of a musical instrument?)

I love this video, it encompasses the essence of struggles within humans and people with heart felt emotions (i.e. a sense of realism in people). Having emotions that make you feel down should not be something that we should be ashamed of, as it naturally manifests each of us from time to time.

It's okay to be not okay =)

Fallin' In and Out

It's been almost a month since the last post, some updates:

I lost my laptop
Had crushes - only to realise they don't feel the same way =/
Just finished trials and most of ot was screwed up >.<

Life's a bitch ain't it?

Yesterday (6/9/2010) I fell for someone for who had a boyfriend. I know my brain says I shouldn't, but heart says otherwise, this is bad, and goes wayyyyyyy outta line. Today (7/9/2010), I sort of dated someone and in the cinema, we sorta held hands, and I felt a head leaning on my shoulder. But, after the show, it seemed as though as that felt nothing to the said individual. I asked of prospects of us in the future, but seemed like a negative feedback to me. I flirted and hinted that I wouldn't mind being a boyfriend to the said individual, and hinted that i had some feelings. SOME. A lil.   

But, from this individual side, who claims not event a hint of attraction sort of brought me down a bit. Maybe it will take time to develop. Just maybe? Or, maybe this person just ain't interested at all.

UGH I GIVE UP

Then, things like these fill yourself with plenty of self doubt; am I not good-looking enough? Or perhaps, I do not fulfill the 'measures of a man', I don't know, I'm pretty confused. 

Or maybe it's not time yet? A tarot card reaader once predicted I shall find my soulmate at the age of 23 and get married at the age of 27. I will never know if it's true, I'd be a monkey's uncle if it does come true though.

I guess maybe, sometimes i yearn for companionship, waking up with a lover in my arms, etc. and jazz like that. To an extent, I could even be labelled as desperate.

Oh, and I learned a quote from a songin Step Up 3D today: It's okay to not be okay