Shape Up

And I quote and modified, "no one will physically think you are charming on first impression if you end up looking like a Pillsbury Dough Boy".

Random fact: I get pissed when mentioned or commented about how 'fat' or 'round' i look. Probably one of the only thing on this planet that can get on my nerves. On a similar note, wouldn't a lot of people be considered shallow if they were to only seek those with nice bodies/ good looking features? People would be contradicts if they said that 'your appearance doesn't matter, only inner beauty counts'. Puh-leaz, would anyone give someone like Susan Boyle a second look if she were a random person on the streets? (no offence, I love her music, and using her as an example that beauty is only skin deep further reinforces the point I am trying to get across)

In the end, no one really wants to cuddle with a lump of lipids.

Whatever it is, time to shape up. Stop giving myself excuses!

Dream Journal - Of Card Games and an Old Friend

Was teaching my mother how to play Monopoly Deal. We were sitting on a table arrangement simliar to the one in Setia Alam. The backgroud was very similar to the Electric Chapel and Market in Lady Gaga’s Judas MV. Telling that you can only play 3 cards per turn. She played banked in 3 cards as cash. Then a dude in a blue t-shirt approached me as I was sitting down, and told me a friend of his knows me. Looking further into the distance at another table was an old friend who I have not met in a long time. Oh my, it has been a while since I’ve talked/communicated with him man!

Analysis: Funny thing is my Mum never plays board games with us, the only time she did play with my bro and I was when we were playing checkers and my mum was teaching us how to play it right.

Perhaps, I need to reconcile and make an effort to talk to him again? We used to be close friends, but we somehow drifted apart.

Anonymous // Government Hooker

Let's look at a short glance of what has been happening: The Government chooses to censor 10 file sharing sites in Malaysia. Say they really are competent enough to 'curb' piracy. They forgot that these file sharing sites are also used to store information or files that they wish to share with other users especially if its a huge file, for business or personal reasons. And this is completely legal.

So the question the beloved Government needs to answer is whether they will ban things if it causes harm. They might as well ban the riding of motorcyles since it causes so many damn accidents every year and ban violent video games since they 'pollute the minds of children'.

Anonymous has my support, hands down. He made a move that will have the Government think twice before legislating anymore nonsense again. Anonymous probably thinks the way I do; censorship of such sites, is taking away our freedom. How much longer do we need to succumb to ideas of Government rationales? (Don't get me started with the cases of Yoga ban among Muslims, banning Valentines, banning poco-poco dance, and the recently new establishment of the ridiculous OWC to shape and mold first class prostitutes) 

I'm glad someone like Anonymous stepped up, for too long you and I become 'government hookers', we pay them (in the form of tax), yet, we get f*cked by them in the end with nonsensical explanations and legislations. A by-election, please.

Make You Feel My Love

The first time I heard 'Make You Feel My Love' was the cover version by Kelly Clarkson in 2008 I think, it's only recently 13th June 2011, where I decided to listen to Adele's version, and my, did it send chills to my bones. I like the way she sings it, how she pines for another that will have feelings for her as well.

Well it's not like I can choose and have control over whomever I fall in love with. Things go out of hand, people fall in love with bad boys, instead of me; the good boy. The goody two-shoes who abide by the rules, or in informal malay, skema. Which also meant I used to hold on very strongly to morals, and heroic values, and was naive to think that everything is based on merit, which meant that I was sure someone would like me right? And how wrong I was. How devastated I was upon discovering that the world was twisted that true "Law & Order" did not exist. 'Bad boys', especially those who bear a gangsta demeanor or are the class clowns seem to be more attractive to members of the opposite sex, which befuddled me a huge deal. It made me realise that no one would be attracted to a nerd, a geek. Or a person, who ALWAYS sticks to moral high ground, and follows the rules all the time. I guess I tried to be 'cooler'. Whether it was successful or not remains a shrouded mystery.

Then there are those who wish to cut all ties and connections from you it seems, and choose to disappear from your life even when they consciously know that you harbour feelings for them.

On a completely unrelated note:
Lady Gaga's Judas is a song about forgiving your betrayer and yet falling in love with bad boys oer and over again. Nuff said, nay sayers who claim this song as 'blasphemous'. PUH-LEASE! I wouldn't mind listening to your opinion on the song/video, especially reasons why you dislike it.

Marry The Night

Haven't been blogging as regularly as I should. the following will be random rants. Hmmm, well, here it goes... (not like anyone cares)

It's not like I want to give up on love, but it seems money (or lack there of) is becoming an obstacle when I go dating. How much do I need to spend to go for a single date. About RM15 goes to movie tickets, RM 20 goes to lunch and what not mistc. costs (transport) amounts to RM50 a date average. It's not tat I'm stingy, just at the he present moment and time, I do not own the capacity to spend so much per date. Does finding my true love have to be so pricey?

Which brings up an idea: BUDGET DATING! :P what if we had webcam dates? At least with that, then you won't have to be so pissed if the date went wrong and you save the cash used for dating!

Another thing is the time and emotions you pour into a date which may bloom to a relationship sometimes. Sometimes, the time and effort you invest just won't pay off, so why bother? If you don't give a sh*t, why da fark should I? If you are going to send only ONE text per day, you might as well not. IF mutual affection DOES exist, then you would reply me constantly, updating me about your day, or at least telling me new things about you I never knew before.

bukannya ape, it would be really nice if I  find someone who doesn't mind declaring me as their 'man'

Or shall I just marry the night?
For the moonlit night will not betray me,
For all that is evil and creeps in the dark will be my wife,
And lustering stars will be the proof of my marriage,
As well as iridescent children
In the dark of the night, I ask myself, "must I write?"