Love - Say Only What You Mean

Once again, philosophy time!

When two people are in love and commit themselves to each other, they say a lot of things to please each other and to make each other happy. Hence, at times, they won't be able to help saying "I love you forever", which sounds sweet and all, but the biggest thing that comes to mind is whether that person truly means it from the bottom of their heart or not.

When saying such things one will be subjected to responsibility and must fulfill the promises mentioned, otherwise it will remain as nothing more than just words. Meaning if one says it, one must act accordingly.

Wounds that won't heal

At times, when i thought a wound is in the middle of healing, it really wasn't. In reality the wound only continued bleeding and bleeding. Till I experience unconsciousness from the lost of blood. It is only then I need serious treatment to heal the would, where at that very moment , my life was hanging by intravenous saline solution injection into my the underside of my wrist.

Bedridden, I thought to myself, on the things that I have done to the extent of actually deserving all this. Devils and Demons alike smirk and laugh at my disability to move freely during that moment. What else would I have to hold on to? To live for? Given all I whom I assumed would be by my side left me before the end of my journey.

I have just enough energy to forcefully remove the injection and end my life just like that. With that, no more pain, no more suffering. Should I?

Red Day!

It's Red Day!

On hold a sec, its not associated with any global international event, ie. "International Red Day". Then why do we do it? Well for the fun of it of course! (Besides the fact that we can scare the hell outta our Biology and Chemistry lecturers. Should've seen the look on his face. Priceless.) We even took snapshots of our "all red" crew, (photo courtesy of Angie)


I was kinda sick of KDU Squares expensive but small servings of mixed rice. So, Leon and I decided to go to You Yie (a short walk from KDU) for lunch. Each of us paid RM 4.70 and got 2 1/2 bowls of rice (added rice) with large servings of 3 types of dishes. Was VERY satiating.


Daily things aside, time for some philosophy talk~

~Me thinks one of life's greater ordeal, is to able to not only understand one's self, but also accept one's self.~

I for one strive for recognition and to be appreciated. It gives me a feeling of satisfaction when that all the passion and effort that I put into making something happen and bear fruit. This of course applies differently for other individuals, some even believe in "Service Above Self" which is in no way right or wrong, but as long as one has stringent belief in something, that itself can be the driving force to let one live.

Lately, I'm beginning to understand myself more. Being a very emotional person, I fall in love rather easily, which I tend to mix it up with infatuation/crush. I understand the fuzzy feeling when I see certain people and should not shy away from it, as they are my genuine feelings. I should learn to except these are mine and mine alone and should not be shunned aside. Only time will tell how these minuscule feelings can develop.

Random...

Had the sudden urge to blog? (looks at clock - 1.02am - crap, just a quick entry b4 sleeping)

It's like a month since my last update.. Was busy "adapting" to college (ok fine, thats a lousy excuse for "im such a lazy ARSE" so sue me =P)

Been in KDU college for a month, (including) that first week of orientation..

Adapting is no prob for me i guess, and braving through almost anything is one of my beliefs for those who know me long enough.. I mean, I could braved through KHS (Kajang High School) forest path at 3 a.m.. Yup, you heard rite, 3 a.m.. I had to go back from after visiting our St. John AC1 juniors' camp cuz the day after that i had to work (at 10am via walking FYI)

Well, frankly speaking, the forest has been associated with many many ghost stories, and ya, guess i ve got balls of steel/insane enough to make it through.. In one piece.. ;)

O, and the room in the student house im living in is MEANT to be a double room.. And another guy is s'pose to move in sometime soon.. But for now, I'm living alone (love me privacy much)

And i guess i should sign off now, b4 I accidentally allow myself to continue staying awake (ie facebooking and looking for tokusatsu downloads.. XD