Piece of my Mind - Face of an Angel

"I have come to terms that the only reason why 'movie magic' is a term coined so, is 'cause it is magic that happens only in the movies." - Myself


"I have come to consensus with myself that perhaps there is no such thing as 'True Love' in this world. Platonic love exist perhaps, but not the fabled 'True Love'" - Myself




An interesting poem I'd love to share with all, from From the book Magic: Dissension (3rd Ravnica Cycle) :



Don't say I have a face of an angel,
'Cause it's such an easy thing to do.
I would never want the face of an angel,
Nt after seein' what an angel goes through.

-Face of an Angel, by Shonya Bale, the Balladrix of tin Street

GSD (NOT German Shepherd Dog) // Pokerface

Massive update!

4th – 7th Dec
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Went to the Great Serdang Debate (GSD)

And broke the the finals again… as an adjudicator!

Our team did well, (Don and Julius), (Reena and Naga) and (Max and Ranjani) all broke into the quarter-finals, Don and Julius made it to the semi-finals. In the end, Kathleen and I broke into the finals as adjudicators.

There were adjudicating problems here and there according to team, and I got a f*cking shock when I heard the Best Speaker (of the non-breaking team) award announced. Almost fainted.

On the final night, we mingled around with the high school kids from Sri Permata, played Mafia and whatnot. And no, don’t stare at me like a pedophile, although I admit I enjoyed spending time with them (They were like in the age group of 13 years-16 years???)



10th Dec – 12th Dec
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Went to Kampar on 10th , Cameron on 11th, Genting on 12th … Freaking tiring trip. Practically lived in the car. @.@

Kampar (Perak) – Reached about 7pm. Went to our favourite place for claypot chicken rice.

Cameron – Came here with aunt and cousin. Went to the strawberry farm and tried out Strawberry Strudel, Strawberry Mousse and Chocolate-coated strawberry. Yummies.

Went to pick cherry tomatoes in the farm. Had the opportunity to pick a horse radish from the soil (seriously, the size of this whopper puts the ones we have normally in supermarkets to shame @.@)

We also had boiled Cameron corn (Which is pretty darn good!)

Genting – I sooooooooo wanted to sing Lady Gaga’s Pokerface as I went to Genting. Went to the casino for the first time XD (not sure whether the legal age is 18 or 21, bah, who cares masuk only la XD) And I went in practically unnoticed. Yay. Was once commented on how I looked like a 21-year old @.@ So yeah, I look mature XD But unfortunately, my brother got caught, and he forgot his IC *face smack*

So end up, I got a brief tour of the casino then teman my bro to the arcade. We found a few machines that could give 100-ish in one go =D but unfortunately, we lacked the *skills*

~Extra tickets that we forgot to exchange ._.~

Eventually we collected 300+ tickets and exchanged it for a bag, and given a pink whistle (of all colours, why pink? Apparently, it’s the only colour they have ._.) and postcard. Summor the guy who gave it to us was damn rude.

Me: I want that brown bag

Him: This one?

Me: No the other one *points clearly this time*

Him: This one izzit? (losing patience)

Me: Yeah.

*He picks up the bag and smacks it on the table*

First of all, as a customer we have a right to choose the item we want. Secondly, he was very rude and just *smacked* the bag on the table. Bah, won’t bother complaining t consumer rights (he probably wants to earn a quick buck from the part time there)

13th Dec
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Went shopping for clothes for prom, my bro needs to buy the whole set, while I just need shoes, saw this lala-ish shirt (but rather nice), but its TOO SMALL.

 ~The lala shirt i wanted to wear but was too tight ><~

This is what I hate bout shopping for clothes. The clothes I want are never my size, that goes the same for shoes (I’m a freakin’ size 10/11 with wide feet) Why can’t they tailor fashionable clothes for larger people like me!??!? Ish.

Prom, here I come.

Signing out,
A rather fashionable Wilson.

End Semester, Begin Debate

Tomorrow will officially be the mark of the end of our semester, and also beginning for GSD (Great/Grand Serdang Debate) in UPM. Excited and nervous at the same time!

Diarrhea subsided (thank goodness) just in time for the competition. Lately I've been judging incorrectly? My decision seem to contradicts with everyone else's decision. Regardless, I need to learn to be more stern with my decision and be more assertive. Hopefully I won't make such a fool of myself during GSD.

It's been a while I haven't done a Tarot reading perhaps I'll do it. (Hence the magical insignia picture above ;P)

Signing off,
A nervous Wilson

ill

1st Nov
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Woke up with diarrhea, tried to drink 100plus then took 'teck aun' traditional pills which is suppose to work wonders for diarrhea. Eventually vomited the whole thing out, including the bread i just consumed. ._.

Ok, I'm quite sure I'm getting ill, began to develop headache and felt fever-ish. Crap. I so can't go to class today ><, oh well, today is only 1hour of Physics and Biology each, so I won't miss much. What a day to get sick.

God, are you punishing me for the post yesterday about Bleeding Love? Or am I just being punished for the food I taken the day before which was:

-soy milk for breakfast
-porridge
-mixed rice with veggies and chicken
-chocolate brownies
-sushi at sakae sushi

my bet would obviously be the last one ._. stupid raw fish >< Rvie suggested it could be stale X(

Right before going to the clinic, did a 5-sphere tarot reading on health and bloordy hell wouldn't you knew it, i drew 7 pentacles (depicts a man waiting for a tree to bloom) i.e. patience! EEESH, some help that is! with this illness of course im expected to wait and let myself heal ._.

Went to the doctor, the journey there was hellish. Imagine walking to the nearest clinic1km away with a headache, fever, wind in stomach and trying my very best to tahan purging and vomitting in the middle of the road >< I ended up in two children's clinic before finding a general clinic in damansara uptown ><  RM 50 for the visit, bloordy hell ._.
Gave me a jab for better absorption, she jabbed my BUTT. OUCH. it became numb. it still hurts till now ._. (the next day)

Took my medication with a cup of Milo and bread and slept off after that.


2nd Nov
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Woke up at 9am - feeling much better than the day before, butt still feels kinda numb ._.

Signing out,
A numb Wilson

Bleeding Love // Bad Romance

As suggested from the title, yeah, I am heart-broken. On and off, I get heart-broken when I remember of times when it could have been, or it cannot be.

The relationships I went through include a lot of up and downs, but one of the key factors that caused my relationships (as well as most other people in the past) to not work is:

- lack of commitment from either one or both sides.

- destiny's play and Cupid just did not favour your love together.

- one side just wants to play safe and *try it out* perhaps.

- feelings were never there in the first place

- and even if feelings are there, some people lose those feelings very easily.

Besides the *spark* and mutual attraction towards each other, a lil' bit of effort from BOTH sides should be seen.

It takes two to tango. It takes two to waltz. More often than not, I find myself dancing alone. It sure is fun to be free and dance to one's heart's content. However, somewhere along, you wish you could find someone else to dance with you with music that is meant for two. For me, my partners usually vanish immediately after, changing partners and dances with the next person in the ballroom.

This goes on, and I dance alone, perhaps for the rest of my life.

On the other hand, I've grown quite a bit. I thought at times that I might not need a partner as I grow older, I'll lower my expectations to satiate my heart's will. Sounds like a lonely miser in the making, but if Destiny's Play has decided that I walk alone for eternity (or till a waltzer stays by my side forever), so be it. Perhaps it is not meant to be.

Not only that, I learned to not expect too much from the person who could potentially be my soulmate/life-long partner. Reason being, that the less I expect, the less I get disappointed when a certain "guideline" enforced is not adhered to.

P.S. This is not intended to bitch about my ex. It is intended to give people insight to what I think Love is like and the flaws I'm trying to amend for the sake of Love

Signing off,

A broken-hearted Wilson